It's been a while!

Yeah, I know that most of you have given up on me. I'm sorry. This past year has been very eventful. DC and I did a lot of remodeling in our house. We put in really nice laminate flooring and painted and did all that fun stuff. Next summer we are going to finishing it all off by continuing the laminate throughout the upstairs, re-building our back entry and making it part of the kitchen, and putting on new siding. This place will look good just in time for us to start the plans for our new house. By the time we finish the only thing that would be left to do to make it really nice is to put in new windows but we really don't want to take that on right now. It's an old house and the floors were enough of a headache. I'm glad we are splitting the updates between two summers because I was really getting sick of painting. I still have a little trim to finish downstairs.
Both of our girls are monsters. They are getting really big really fast. It is really cool to play with them now that they both have their own personalities. They are completely different. Allison is a drama queen most of the time but she also likes to dance around and tell you stories that are absolutely hillarious. Katelyn is more laid back, she just likes to smile and cuddle. She is always smiley. They don't even have the same body type. Allison was always really chubby and short but Katelyn is longer and really dainty.
DC also started a new job this summer so he works at the RTI out at Camp. He likes it and he doesn't because the schedules can get kinda crazy from time to time.Other than that he has been really busy with starting an online business selling GPS and car audio equiptment. HE has partnered with his brothers who all have strengths in different aspects of the business and I think it is going to take off really well. They have all the bases covered with people who really know what they are doing. When everything is ready for opening I will post the website. It is really cool, I am really proud of them.
I have still been doing my parties but not as much as I want to. I hope to hit it really hard this coming year and become an Executive Director. To do that I need $30,000 retail sales and 15 recruits. I can do it, cross your fingers for me. I want to make it a really profitable business. I think that I will be going back to school next fall and I want to go into something that compliments my business. I have a few things up in the air but I also have to judge what is going to be most fruitful in this area. I would love to be a sexual therapist but I just don't see that as something that will take off in ND.

Hello All

This is a picture of Allison and her Cousin Katrina on Halloween night. We still cannot believe that she is gone. We love and miss you Baby Katrina.

Things have been really crazy. Josie has started a play date group in Grand Forks and has put me in charge of the group in Devils Lake. So far the Devils Lake chapter hasn't gone very far but I hope to really get things going in the next week or two. We had both been talking about having a group like that for some time but we never imagined that within a week of starting the group in Grand Forks there would be a group in Devils Lake and Fargo as well. So far Josie has done a lot with the group in Grand Forks. I hope it becomes a success here in Devils Lake as well. We finally have some pictures to post too.

DC had drill this weekend and he is finally getting a much deserved promotion. I'm so proud of him. There is tallk now about DC maybe becoming a Drill Sergent. That would be really cool because he would be one of the only two Drill Sergents in North Dakota. That also means though that he will have to do drill weekends in Fargo instead of Carrington. It is a great opportunity for him so whatever he decides to do I will be behind him 100%. His birthday is on April 1st and he will be 23 years old this year. HEHEHE He is old. Anyways, I will get some of these pictures up and post again later.

Going Out Of My Mind

The past couple of weeks have been hell. DC left on the 5th early in the morning. He had to go to Utah for training for a little over two weeks. That morning his brother Darrick and his girlfriend Brittany had a very adorable baby boy which makes me an auntie for the very first time and makes DC an uncle for the first time. Just after having the baby DC's cousin was declared dead. She was only 21 months old and was killed by blunt force trama to the head. I will never ever understand how anyone could hurt a child, especially a baby. The whole family has been taking this very hard and all the while DC has been stuck in Utah trying to concentrate on the things he needs to complete for this course. I try to be strong and I like to think that if anything were to ever happen I could handle things but not having DC here during this and trying to take care of the girls all by myself has been really hard. Allison really misses DC which makes me miss him even more and to top off all the shit we have been faced with, both of the girls and I got sick and are just now starting to get over it. Josie is going to try to come over tomarrow night and stay the night. I think it will be really great to get my mind off of things and just relax with a friend. The girls can play and Josie and I can get some ice cream and vent or something. Who knows maybe she will be able to motivate me to work out a little. I comfort eat so this week I have probably eaten as much of our food as would be gone if DC was here. Sorry this post is depressing. I just need a break.

Don't expect this everyday!

Hello, I should be in bed right now since both my girls are actually asleep but instead I am up doing laundry. Last week I switched laundry detergent and the past couple of days Ally's eyes have been really icky. I don't know if she is allergic to the detergent or not but I am re-washing all of the laundry just in case. I am also making an appointment for her tomorrow to make sure we can rule out any other allergies or pneumonia. I guess a lot of upper respiratory stuff is going around and one of the first symptoms is the gooey eyes. I thought it sounded weird but I don't want to take a chance with it. Anyway, things have been really busy. I have been working out with DC every other day and on the days I don't work out I go and do light therapy(tan). It seems to help me a lot more than the counseling ever did. I am totally against going on medication though. It's just not something I want to get into. I am still working with my anemia. I often wonder if I will feel normal again and then I realize that this is as normal as it is going to get. I suppose it could always be worse. I love the Christmas season but it is truly stressful. I can't wait for things to be calm again. I just don't know when that will be. In January I will be alone with the girls for about three weeks because DC has to go to Utah for training. I have a feeling it is going to be a long month. I am so used to him being here to help me with the girls and now if Ally is really sick it is going to make things really hard. Like everything else I will just have to take one thing at a time and remember that he will be home soon. Maybe I can call Josie and Candace when I start to go insane and they can come to my rescue! What do you think girls?! Tomorrow is going to be really hard because it is the anniversary of DC's dad passing away. I think we are going to make tomorrow a family day and just try to have fun together. I just want to make things as easy for DC as possible. I know that he has been torn up inside for the past few days. I guess that is what it means when you say thick or thin. Our marriage is only growing stronger and I can't describe how happy we have been. Truly happy. This is the life I always dreamed of. If only I could slow it down a little! haha

Ok, Ok Here is a post!

Well things have been anything but calm around here lately. Allison is anxiously awaiting Christmas and Katelyn in working on getting ready to crawl. It's cute because I put here on her belly and she gets so frustrated. You can tell that she just wants to take off and find something to get into. I like that she is stationary for now though. Christmas is really busy for us this year. Saturday we are spending the day with the extended family on DC's side, Sunday we will be at my dad's, and maybe mom's, Monday we will have Carol, Diana, and the boys along with all the girlfriends and boyfriend over here, then Tuesday my grandparents will be here from Texas. I am going to need a vacation after all of that. I have been doing more parties lately and I am currently working to be a team manager and after that my goal is to become an executive director. I will get there eventually. Right now I am also really enjoying being at home with my girls. Allison is doing really well. We are just about potty trained, besides an accident here and there. She is also talking all the time now. We can't get her to be quiet for a minute. It's fun though. DC is going to be starting another job soon and will then be training to do the same thing that my dad does. Right now DC is also doing online courses and I will be starting online courses in January. Since my last post DC and I got married, we celebrated Ally's 2nd birthday, my dad went to Africa, Josie's dad passed away and just a lot of other crazy stuff. We also found out that I do have high chances of carrying another baby buy we have more risk to consider and the same thing could possibly happen again. Therefore, having another baby is still really up in the air. I guess we will just take things as they come. Oh yeah, we also are looking at buying our house and if things go as planned we will be remodeling and adding on to the house as soon as this summer. That's if things go as planned though. Well I spoze Ally is asking for juice now and I have some things to get done around the house so I will try to post more often. Gotta go for now.

Finally posting

I have not fallen off the face of the earth although there are times that I feel like I will never see the light of day again. Katelyn is now three weeks and one day old. It has gone really fast. She will already be a month old next week. She is doing really good though. Her jaundice is completely gone and she is gaining weight really well. I am losing weight little by little and hopefully I won't have any problem getting back to normal. My tummy will never be the same because of my scar but at least I won't have a lot of baby weight. Allison loves being a big sister but she also has her jealous moments and sometimes when she tries to help out she has a hard time understanding that she is just too rough. It has been hard dividing my attention between them but I think it will just have to come with time. I still have not been feeling real great. I feel dizzy a lot and feel as if I am going to faint if I am up too long. My anemia is still pretty bad but we are hopeful that we will have it under better control soon. Right now I have to take iron pills three times a day along with my prenatal vitamin and I have to take aspirin once a day. I guess it could be worse though. I think I kinda forgot how tiring the first few weeks could be. Some of it is because of the anemia and some of it is because of the nighttime fits and feedings. We seem to be getting through it all pretty good though. I have many more pictures but I am only going to post a few for now because both girls are actually asleep and I am going to take advantage of that and sleep myself. I will post again soon.

I didn't let people take pics of me until all the cords and IV's and stuff were out so this was taken on day three of my hospital stay. It felt so good to sit with both of my girls for the first time.
I have already forgotten what she looks like when she is peaceful. This is my reminder.

Life definately has its twists!

I am now the proud mommy of a brand new baby girl. Her name is Katelyn Alexis and she weighed 7 lbs. 9 oz. and was 20 inches long. She was born at 10:01 on Saturday night. For anyone that I have not yet called, I am sorry but I am about to explain. I have experienced huge things in the past week. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, was told I may not ever have children again, and nearly died all in the same night. My delivery with Katelyn was fine I had about five hours of actual hard labor and was able to have a successful vaginal birth. But, just as quickly as I brought my baby into the world I was on my way out. Right after I pushed Katelyn out I was still in a lot of pain and couldn't understand why. The pressure and pain should have been gone but it was worse than ever. Next thing I knew my baby and DC were being pushed out of the room. After some time with the doctor still working pushing on my stomache and trying to calm me down he told the nurses to go and get DC. When DC came in the doctor told him that they needed to operate on me or I was going to bleed to death. My uterus turned inside out and they said that they may have no choice but to give me a hysterectomy. I was losing a lot of blood at this point so things started to get fuzzy from here on out. I was in so much pain and I didn't understand what was happening. I had never heard of anything like that. I didn't know that was possible. Anyways, the rest of the night everyone was crying and I was coming in and out. DC even thought at one point that I was gone. The scariest part of the whole thing is that this is a very uncommon thing and is very very rarely fixed successfully. I went through the surgery and was amazingly able to keep my uterus and I actually may have a chance at having more children but we will definately weigh all the options before we even think about trying. It may be too big of a risk to take. With everything that happened that night I wasn't even able to meet my baby until the next morning and I didn't know her weight or anything until later that day. When I finally got to see DC again I realized how close I was to being gone. I really almost died. I lost so much blood that I still have a low blood count and unable to stand or walk or anything for any amount of time. I am doing ok now. I have a large incision and am pretty sore and my blood loss will likely affect me for some time but I am very thankful for everything I have in my life and everything I almost lost. therefore, if I have not contacted you please know that it is nothing personal and that it is not because I do not care, it is simply because I needed the time for myself and my family to grasp everything that has happened and to care for myself and my family. I love you all and hope that you will understand and respect that need and not get upset about not receiving a phone call.