Going Out Of My Mind

The past couple of weeks have been hell. DC left on the 5th early in the morning. He had to go to Utah for training for a little over two weeks. That morning his brother Darrick and his girlfriend Brittany had a very adorable baby boy which makes me an auntie for the very first time and makes DC an uncle for the first time. Just after having the baby DC's cousin was declared dead. She was only 21 months old and was killed by blunt force trama to the head. I will never ever understand how anyone could hurt a child, especially a baby. The whole family has been taking this very hard and all the while DC has been stuck in Utah trying to concentrate on the things he needs to complete for this course. I try to be strong and I like to think that if anything were to ever happen I could handle things but not having DC here during this and trying to take care of the girls all by myself has been really hard. Allison really misses DC which makes me miss him even more and to top off all the shit we have been faced with, both of the girls and I got sick and are just now starting to get over it. Josie is going to try to come over tomarrow night and stay the night. I think it will be really great to get my mind off of things and just relax with a friend. The girls can play and Josie and I can get some ice cream and vent or something. Who knows maybe she will be able to motivate me to work out a little. I comfort eat so this week I have probably eaten as much of our food as would be gone if DC was here. Sorry this post is depressing. I just need a break.